Who I Am

"The place God calls you to is where your deep gladness and the world's deep hunger meet."

I continue to be amazed at all the things God shows me in a day; even if I don't leave my house (which I haven't today, since I'm sick). Nonetheless, God has still created me to be an internal and thoughtful person; sometimes so much that I just brood over things like poverty, blessings, people, the meaning of life, where I see myself in the future, how I want to help people, etc. The list goes on and on. I keep a running bucket list in the back of my mind yet not on paper; and I am slowly finding myself completing this bucket list. 

I keep singing this song in my head: "Who I Am" by Jason Gray. It's just a miraculous song that lets me know that I belong to God. Even when I have days when I'm happy and content, I must never forget that my good deeds, if any, are still like rags to the Lord. I'm still NOTHING without Him. I must never be above anything. The Lord must always be above. The lyrics just strike me as humble. Sometimes we all need a reminder of whose we are...and we are ALWAYS God's.

Every line of this song speaks to me in a way that brings my life experiences--past and present--to where I am now in my life. I've gone through countless "dry spells," if that's what you call it--and I'm not ashamed to say that I've endlessly failed in all my attempts to follow the Lord. I wake up in the morning and look in the mirror and don't like what or who I see more days than not; I forget what grace is. I forget what mercy is. Then I realize I'm living in it. Every breath I breathe is one that I don't deserve, yet here I am being given a chance! Perhaps the most important line in this song to me is this: "Afraid I'll never be enough/Remind me who I am/If I'm Your beloved/Can You help me believe it." I know, just like so many of you, what it's like to feel you're the only person walking Earth despite the fact that there are millions of people roaming the planet. We just need to be reminded that we need God--that even if there really were NO people on Earth, God is enough. Learn to be fully content--consumed--in His crazy love for YOU!

When I lose my way,
And I forget my name,
Remind me who I am.
In the mirror all I see,
Is who I don't wanna be,
Remind me who I am.
In the loneliest places,
When I can't remember what grace is.

Tell me once again who I am to You,
Who I am to You.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to You,
That I belong to You.
To You.

When my heart is like a stone,
And I'm running far from home,
Remind me who I am.
When I can't receive Your love,
Afraid I'll never be enough,
Remind me who I am.
If I'm Your beloved,
Can You help me believe it.

Tell me once again who I am to You,
Who I am to You, whoa.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to You.
That I belong to You.
To You.

I'm the one you love,
I'm the one you love,
That will be enough,
I'm the one you love.

Tell me once again who I am to You.
Who I am to You.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to You,
That I belong to You, oh.

Tell me once again who I am to You.
Who I am to You.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to You,
That I belong to You.
To You.